Tuesday, August 31, 2010


i've had a lot to contemplate the last few days. i've not experienced anything like it since my mom passed away. it's not fun, it hurts and honestly i don't think people should have to go through it.

but it's a part of life, as sucky as it is, and we end up learning from it, gaining our own insights and perspectives and if we're open to it, growing from the process.


let's just be honest. it completely blows goats. that's right, BLOWS!! but it happens. and although on the other side of it awaits pure bliss, it's not easy to handle when you're the one left behind.

a few days ago i found out a friend of mine had a seizure, went into cardiac arrest and was found unconscious in her home, by her mother. my friend was 35 years old, married and has three girls, 3, 5 and 8. not a good combination. my heart was torn and i hurt for about 48 hours straight. friends from everywhere came together and prayed for her healing. prayed until it hurt, prayed so hard i was exhausted at the end of the day. BUT i felt God. i know He heard every word prayed on her behalf. i felt Him deep in my heart and i knew He was listening.

everyone, everywhere was believing for a miracle. these girls should not have to live without their momma. i'm much older than they, i know what it feels like, i miss my mom every single day.....this is too much hurt for them to go through without understanding. Guy should not have to be without his wife. their relationship was pure, they were good for each other. a perfect match in my opinion. he should be able to celebrate his 50 year anniversary with this woman.

but God saw things differently. He wanted her with Him.

and so now a man is left without his wife and three precious girls are left without their mom. it's not fair. it doesn't make sense. to be blunt and perfectly honest....it's bullsh*t.

and then i read and reflect and pray. b/c if i'm hurting this much, i know from experience her family is hurting double.

Isaiah 55:8-9 (the message)
"I don't think the way you think.
The way you work isn't the way I work."
God's Decree.
"For as the sky soars high above earth,
so the way I work surpasses the way you work,
and the way I think is beyond the way you think.

Isaiah 54:10 (the message)
Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,"

i could go on forever but these two scriptures spoke to me the most over the last couple of days. God sees so much more than we can begin to imagine. He's still got a plan for Guy, he's still got a plan for their three precious girls.

and He's got a plan for all of us.
to love. no matter what.

Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.


may, samantha e. said...


this post. It is so emotional. It is the kind of thing that terrifies me. An unexplainable turn of events.

I hurt for this family.
Everyone involved is in my prayer and I continue to pray for God's blanket of comfort and provision.... and a continuation of His unfailing love in an unconventional way.

Keep letting God speak to you especially in the pain, and keep encouraging your friends to do the same, even when they might not want to.

Love you.

Sara said...

You are reading my mind. I'm pissed. Royally pissed about this. You're right, too. I needed that.

I love that you say "blow goats." One of my faves. ;-)

j'layne said...

Dorynda, I am saddened to hear of your loss and her family's loss. It definitely "sucks", I actually tell God that every now and again! But I am very proud of you for turning to the Word to get your comfort. It doesn't come any better than that! Love you!

Jenn said...

Love you bugga! After I txt'ed you... another baby girl hatched out....I feel like it is Sam talking to me...telling me that Marianne is there and I asked him to show her around and teach her how to talk to Guy and the girls... when the 2nd girl hatched out...I took that as a "You bet I will!"