i have not yet been emotional when it comes to my kids as far as milestones are concerned. some of my friends have shed tears when the baby stage is gone, moving from one house to another, first days of school, things like that...and i love that about my friends, it's just never gotten to me before....UNTIL jakob started school. and every day he comes home with new information, things he's learned, friends he has, what he's going to do when he gets older...and i have to admit, it's killing me. i LOVE this stage with jake and to think of him being 7 or 16 absolutely kills me. there, i admitted it....it's killing my heart to watch my son grow up. i just want him to stay this way forever.
so to shove the dagger deeper into my heart, he brings home to me, yesterday after school (sniffle sniffle, kleenex box please) his first school pictures. UGH!!!!! my bleeding heart can take no more! i know what you're thinking, it's only a picture but that's it, we've crossed a threshold...he's going to start becoming too cool for mom at any minute and then what will i do. i will once again have to control my emotions. i can only pray for an amazing relationship between us and maybe, just maybe, we won't go through any of the "my parent's are stupid" phases that i went through (or brandon for that matter) i know, chuckle to yourself all you want. i can pray if i want.
so i leave you with this....my precious 4 year old and his first school picture (and to me he already looks older)